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want to start with a quote today. This is
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by James Hollis. It
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is no accident that the primary
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motive, the hidden agenda in any
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relationship is the
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yearning to return. And
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the way that I interpret this is
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the return, is the return to self. What
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I think is really interesting about
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relationships, on
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one hand, I think it's
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what makes relationships still so difficult,
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but also I think there's
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a miracle in this. And that is that
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after the attraction, of course,
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after the honeymoon stage, there's going to be
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contrast. There's going to be differences. There's going
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to be things you
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discover about this person that
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activate you. And I'm not just
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talking about the way that
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he doesn't put the toothpaste
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cap back on or her
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spending habit or his dirty socks on
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the floor or the way that she
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chews. I'm talking about activation
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from childhood
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wounds. I'm talking about activation
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from different attachment styles.
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That kind of stuff, right? Stuff that is tied to our...
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story. If
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you don't work through that activation,
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then of course the
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relationship dies, you run
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or numb,
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find someone else, and
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this pattern happens where you just,
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the only thing that changes is
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faces, right? If
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you work through the activation using
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your relationship as it
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would be like an emotional
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mental gym, if you will, right? Putting
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in a lot of reps, reviewing
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your story and why you do what you
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do. And as
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two people work through this activation, then on
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the other side of that, because
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what happens is then the relationship
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container they build becomes greater than
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its parts, the relationship becomes not
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only safe but healing. And this is
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what I believe is the miracle of
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relationships. The
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relationship that you build with someone, assuming
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it's healthy and people are working on
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themselves as well as
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the relationship, it
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starts to heal people. It gives
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people corrective experiences. And
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the return, I think James Hollis
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is talking about is this
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piece where as
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you heal in relationships, you start to return
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back to self. The
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relationship itself can disconnect you,
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especially early on if the relationship isn't
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healthy. But
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if you learn how to repair
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from ruptures, if you learn how
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to communicate and
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process, and if both
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of you work on the relationship, on
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the other side of this, there's
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a connection to self. I
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think it's one of the most beautiful things about relationships
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because it reminds me of the circle
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of life. Anyway,
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this is called, Don't Ask Yourself
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What You've Learned From Your Relationships.
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As we explore and work through our
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attachment and childhood wounds, by
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the way, this is by
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me, written by me, understanding how
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that shows up in who we
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choose to love and how we
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love as we understand the value
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of love, the miracle, and
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that it is earned and in
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order to experience it, we must
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continuously work on our relationship with
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self, healing and growing and
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taking ownership, which is a lifelong journey.
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We must also start to look back
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and ask ourselves what we
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have learned from all our expired relationships.
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We cannot reposition
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ourselves for
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new love if we haven't learned from our
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previous love. But
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don't ask yourself what you've learned.
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Instead, ask yourself what those relationships
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have taught you. I
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know it's subtle, but there's a difference and it's huge.
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When you ask yourself what you've
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learned, ego can kick in, right? Ego
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can hijack you. He
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didn't learn shit, so why should I, right? What
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did you learn can feel forced and
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be lined with a reprimanding, pushing
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your face in spilled milk. You
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did something wrong or more damaging. There's something
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wrong with you. It
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leaves room for a harshness, which
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leads to close, closed
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fists and resistance. Now,
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on the other hand, what
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did the relationship teach you, right? If you
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ask yourself, what did the relationship teach me,
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that releases ego and sets you higher.
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It gives you a breath, a
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reset. It grants you acceptance,
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helps remove the urge to rip out that chapter of
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your life. There
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is a reason or there was a reason and
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that's the key that unlocks. Knowing
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that there was a reason. If
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you don't believe the relationship has taught you
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anything about yourself or love, then
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there's no reason, right? And then without a reason, it
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was a waste. You want to rip out that chapter,
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all that hurt and pain for what? Obligated
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sex and shared chores? You
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must know the reason why this person
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came into your life and
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why you came into theirs. And
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the way into that is
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to know what the relationship has taught you. This
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knowing slash reason is what will
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get you to accept, to
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forgive, to embrace, to
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feel gratitude for, to truly
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let go. And finally, to love
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again. What
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did that relationship teach you? What
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here are some of my expired relationships
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or here are some lessons from my
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expired relationships and
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now listen there's
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a thousand micro lessons in every relationship
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but here are the main ones that
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have changed my love. Remember
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the more specific the better. So in my 20s.
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Here's the lesson. The lightning may
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actually be a dysfunction. My
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first dance with love and relationships
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were predictable like so many. I
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chased feelings and loved with my
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eyes believing those feelings would carry
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us. I thought I could
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see why I was attracted to someone but had
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no idea there was something more powerful running
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underneath that drew us. The
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lightning in the bottle was
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actually dysfunction in animalistic predator,
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prey, Al-Anon addict, instinct
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hardwired from our stories.
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I was attracted to women I could
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control but also would take care of
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me emotionally and sexually. Women who had
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something taken from them as a child,
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maybe their voice, their
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childhood, their virginity, and it wired
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them a certain way. They
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became prey and I was the
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predator. The
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purpose of my early relationships was to
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teach me this. It was
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like learning the world was round. What
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I thought was a cape was actually kryptonite. It
11:05
changed everything, how I saw love
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and the absolute power of what
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I call today the sticky. This
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learning was the beginning of me
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examining attraction to make sure it's coming from
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a healthy place so
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I can make better choices. If not,
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love will always be reckless. So
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the teaching in my 20s was
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knowing what kind of people I was drawn to
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and what kind of people were drawn to me
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because that gave me the gift
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of choice. Now
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my 30s, what
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I learned or the topic was
11:47
is a playground or a prison.
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So let me explain. My 30s
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is when I learned how to give women
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orgasms. I was officially, it was
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officially the sex ed chapter of my life.
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Love taught. me the sensitivities of a woman's
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body but also that women can
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have just as high libido
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as men, if not higher.
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Love taught me about the fantasies and
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roleplay and kink and that sex could
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be a vast playground without
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shame and stigma. You
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can turn the lights on. Toys don't make
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you less than. But it
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also taught me that there is a ringing
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bell. We have to go back to class
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or sex can be a way to numb
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and hide from life and
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true intimacy. Sex can be consuming,
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turning love into skin hunger instead
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of soul connections. Both
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can exist but also
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both must exist
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or the playground turns into a prison and
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love is never free or
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hits higher notes. So
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the teaching in my 30s was
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knowing what is
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healthy sexual expression, right? Coming
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from self-love connection and expression
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and what is quixin coming
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from addiction. In
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my 40s what I learned about or
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what love taught me
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was ruptures and
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repair and the importance of them, especially
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the repair. My 40s
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is when I truly experienced repair
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and the healing power of it.
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Repairing emotional ruptures is where corrective
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love experiences truly live. Most
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especially in our early years do not have
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the ability to repair in a healthy way.
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I know I didn't. In my
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relationship before Vanessa who I met
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at age 44, yes
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fights were addressed but
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were they truly repaired?
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And as I'm reading this think about all
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your previous relationships and ask or maybe
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the one that you're in now are
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the fights actually
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repaired or are
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they just pushed aside? Are they
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ignored? Is it
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just patching? work that's happening, right? I have
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a horrible habit of talking
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things to death, or at least until
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I feel it's resolved, but in
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actuality I was just dumping on my partner. This
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was the pattern, this was usually the
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pattern. In order
14:16
for healing to occur, people need to
14:18
feel safe, heard, and understood. Usually
14:20
we suppress, minimize, and overrule, leaving
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our partner to feel the complete
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opposite. Or
14:28
we compartmentalize and ignore the true
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issue. There's
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just a lot of fashwork, as I was saying. Both
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parties need to feel even closer and
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more trust after the argument. I want
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to explain this a little bit. You
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know, fights can actually heal us. As
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long as we're fighting without fighting, as long as the fights
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are healthy, and we
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are using tools to communicate, and pulling
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from compassion, and empathy, and love, and
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not fear, fights can
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be the medicine. You know, fights can heal
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us. They can give us corrective
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experiences, I mean, after
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the fight. And what
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that can produce, what fights can produce is
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understanding and trust. If
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that's not happening, then it's just a
15:17
matter of time before the plane
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goes down, you know? I
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think both parties need to feel even
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closer and more trust after every
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argument. If not, the
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rupture was not repaired. So the
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learning in my 40s was
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without the ability to repair, and that ability
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is both our own
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responsibility to work on, not just one
15:43
person, the relationship will
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never deepen and then grow. In
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my 50s, love is greater. This is
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the learning. And listen, I'm only 51,
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but I am technically in my 50s, and
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I'm learning that love is greater than my
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own wants. needs and desires. It doesn't mean
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for me to ignore them. I'm not saying
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that we should self abandon, right? Of course
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we all have desires and needs and wants
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and they're all very important. It
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just means that there's more to love.
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Love, healthy love, with
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autonomy, safety and trust,
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built into the fabric, not
16:19
just the foundation over time,
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then allowing that blanket to heal you,
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lifts the love and rewires you from
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the inside out. Assuming
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both parties are actively working on themselves,
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the love then grows greater than its
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parts. The kite is now
16:36
in the sky and doesn't require the sprint. What
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forms is a spiritual container.
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Fights that felt like life or death
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seemed petty. We learn
16:47
how to self-soothe and re-parent. We
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connect back to ourselves through the relationship,
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which initially pulled us apart from self.
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We partner instead of possess. Love
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grows up or more accurately
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love grows us up, or
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more accurately than that, love heals
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us. And
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this is what I'm learning about love, that
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the miracle of love in relationships, and
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I'm not saying that it's easy, is
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that it can heal you. And
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it took me
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many decades to learn this, but this
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is where I'm at today. And if
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you believe this, if you experience
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this, there
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is this kind of tipping point where I believe
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not only is
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love like something like an action or something that
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we not only want but give, but
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we become love. I think there's a tipping
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point where, and listen,
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it's not like I'm in that state. I might
17:50
have kind of tapped into it here and
17:52
there. I'm still at the early stages, but
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I have this theory that if
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you are building... healthy
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relationship not only with your partner
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but yourself. Over
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time I think there's a tipping point where it's
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not even about loving someone but
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it's just about about being love,
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right? That love. You start
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to become love. I know it sounds kind of abstract
18:17
but I think
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that's the spirit
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of love. I think that's the
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higher notes. I think that's what's created
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when we learn all our love lessons
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from all our expiring relationships and we
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start to bring someone healthier to the
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table. Anyway
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thank you for listening and if
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you have time I would love a review
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