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Hi, my name is John Kim. I'm a therapist who
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went through his own rebirth many years ago, and
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I've been documenting my journey ever since,
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sharing my life lessons and revelations. I
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believe in casual overclinical with you instead
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of at you. I come
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unrehearsed on purpose because
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self-help doesn't have to be so complicated. Today's
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episode is all Vanessa
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Bennett, my partner who specializes
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in codependency, which I think
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is a foundational topic, and
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this is her lecture
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from one of the retreats we ran. It's
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going to be a series, so look
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out for the other episodes.
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It's, I think,
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imperative. Codependency
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is imperative to understand when it
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comes to not just your romantic
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relationships but all your relationships. So
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here's Vanessa Bennett. So
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I want to go into what
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I call my laundry list
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of codependent tendencies, and this is my bad. I was
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actually going to print you all a
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piece of paper for you to have that, and I will. I'll give it
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to you guys, but I don't have it with me. So I'll
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go slow through these, because usually I've got a list and
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you can actually just look at it. But I go through
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this laundry list. It's not exhaustive. I'm constantly
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adding to it. Can you tap this
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down? This is codependency work. This
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is a lot of codependency work. All
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right, so let's, we'll just start at the top. So lack
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of relationship with self or low self-worth.
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So when I first started doing my codependency
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recovery, I remember the very first thing my
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first therapist said to me when she was
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talking about like low self-esteem or
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low self-worth, and I was like, what
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are you talking about? Like I work in
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advertising. I'm extroverted. I have so many friends.
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I have all this support. Like I have
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all these amazing relationships, and she's like, you're
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misunderstanding what I'm talking about. Well,
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I'm not talking about, are you extroverted? Do you
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have a good community? I'm talking about, do you
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have a relationship with your self? self? Do
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you know who the fuck you are?
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Like, do you have a strong sense
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of inner understanding, inner knowledge, inner love,
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inner respect, right? Capital S self. That's
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why I keep saying that. Right? And
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I was like, I don't
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know. I guess I've never thought about that.
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Right? So we're not necessarily when I say
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that stuff, this idea of I say self
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understanding, self knowledge, right?
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Some of us are going to be on
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different points on that spectrum. But for sure,
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a kickoff point for codependent ways of relating
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is not having a solid sense of self
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understanding, self love, self knowledge, right? Constant
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state of denial. So the
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thing about codependency, which is interesting, is
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that you have to have a certain
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amount of denial for the behaviors
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to continue. Okay, so
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it's one of those things that's like when once
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you know something you can't unknow, right? I could
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be a people pleasing martyr all day until somebody
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like in therapy called me out and then I
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was like, Oh, shit. And now every time I
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do it, because I still do it, but now
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I can't do it without that like outside thing
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going like, you're doing it, you're doing
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it again. Do you know what I mean? So it's a little
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bit of you can't, you can't unknow it once you know it,
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right? Yep. That's
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right. Black and white thinking, emotional
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extremes, compulsiveness. So
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this is the thing about
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codependency. It is a behavioral
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addiction. Codependent behaviors,
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codependent tendencies are
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addictive tendencies. Okay,
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we have a real way of
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kind of demonizing people in our
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culture who have substance abuse issues,
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when in actuality, other
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people and buying shit is just
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as much of an addiction as
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booze, but it's socially
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sanctioned. Right? Here's
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the thing, any addiction, I don't care
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what addiction we're talking about, again, drugs,
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alcohol, porn, sex, shopping,
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again, people, They
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all serve the same purpose, to numb,
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to hide, to soothe anxiety. That's
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what they're there for. There
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are ways that we learn how to make ourselves feel better
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about something when we don't feel good. And
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we don't know what that something is. That's different for everybody, but
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it is for sure a skill that we learn, oh, this
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works. This turns
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it down a little bit. I might need more
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next time, which is what all addictions, we
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need more and more and more to
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keep getting the same response. Codependency is
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the same. So I
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say that to say, we're all in
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it together. We're all
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in some way self-medicating because
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we don't have that solid sense of,
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I know who I am and I'm okay. I'm
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good. I got me. Most
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of us were not raised to embody
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that feeling. Most of our parents
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don't embody that feeling. Most of our grandparents don't embody
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that feeling. Again, look at
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the systems we live within. What I was saying last night, the
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systems that we live within would
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not continue. Capitalism could not continue
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as a structure, unquestioned and unchecked,
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if everybody had a solid sense of self and wasn't
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buying shit all the time to fill
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the void. Do you know what I mean? Like, think about it.
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So an over involvement in someone
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else's life, which underneath
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that is also detaching and not focusing
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on yourself or losing yourself
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in relationships, right? We
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hide from ourselves by
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focusing on other people. I
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don't have to look at myself so long
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as I'm focused on somebody else. I
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don't have to do my own work so long as my fingers
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pointed at the work you need to do. I
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don't have to take 100% accountability for my shit so
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long as I'm saying you're the bad guy in this
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scenario or you're the fucked up one or you need
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help doing this or you, you, you, you. Just
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say hi from ourselves to what? Personal
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accountability. This
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is a lot of my Al-Anon work. I
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am hardcore. Denae
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and I both. It is something that we, like, it's
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the hill that we're willing to die
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on. That personal accountability is the number
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one component to healing. And
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it's hard, and it's icky, and it feels like shit,
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and it makes us feel awful, right? Because
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it activates our ego in all of the ways, right?
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But in every single circumstance, there
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is something that we can own. In
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every single dynamic, there's always something we can
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own, right? Even if,
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and I've heard a lot of pushback on
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this from people, especially people, you know, DV,
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Violet. Now, listen, I'm not saying, like, okay,
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if I'm a child and I'm sexually abused,
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that somehow I have to own something. That's
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not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about
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as an adult in
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a relationship where you are actively contributing
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to a dynamic, right? That's
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what I'm talking about. But even in situations,
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let's say I'm in an abusive dynamic. As
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an adult, I'm in an abusive dynamic for
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10 years. This is not
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to victim blame, but it is to say
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there are two partners co-creating something together. We
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are involved in a dynamic and in a dance
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together. And I have
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seen actually a huge amount of empowerment
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come from people who are even on
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the receiving end of abuse saying,
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here's the way that I contributed to
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this dynamic. Because it's actually,
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it takes away your power when
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you say, that person did all the
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things to me. I'm giving them all
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my power. Even if it's
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hard to say, here's the way that I contributed,
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that actually is an act of reclaiming a sense
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of power and autonomy. And
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like, I have the ability to make a change,
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right? And that's not actually
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the way that a lot of even our current psychology works
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with like abuse as an example, right? Struggling
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with planning and doing for yourself.
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So I call this one, like
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I, I, um, now I'm not
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talking about necessarily like making my dentist appointment every six
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months. Like that shit I'm fine at doing, right? I'm
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good at that, typically. But when
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it comes to things that are nurturing for my
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soul, I'm a lot better at
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making sure everybody else is good than
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making sure that I have a committed
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practice to coming back to self and
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doing things for me, for me. I
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don't need to explain it to
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anybody. It doesn't need to make fucking sense. I don't
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have to ask permission. I don't have to apologize. A
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lot of us are just not great at that. And
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it's not that we don't love making people feel good.
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There's nothing wrong with that. What
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is it balanced? Is it at the detriment of
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ourselves? And by the
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way, you're not going to say yes to every single one of these, just like
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the quiz. Some people are going to be
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on different extremes. And I also like
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to say what I have found is that in
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my relationship with my mom, for example, I
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will say yes on this list to like, oh yeah, I can
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see how I struggle with numbers like six, seven, and nine. And
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in my relationship with John, it might be like 13 and 14.
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And in my relationship with my best friend, it might be like one, two,
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and six. They also show up
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differently because different people trigger and activate
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different responses in us because they have
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their own shit. So
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this isn't like blanket. A
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fear of abandonment and rejection. So
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I say this is the through line. All
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codependent ways of relating are established
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on this base level of fear
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of abandonment or rejection. All
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of them. People
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pleasing. I'm
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worried about how you're going to think about me if
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I don't. People please. And
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so I'm going to kind of alter myself. I'm going to
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potentially self abandon so that you see me in a certain
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way and you don't leave. Or
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like martyring. I'm going to martyr
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myself so that you stay with me because I'm of
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such value to you, you
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could never leave. You
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can start to look at every one of these
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behaviors and see how the fear is that through
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line of why we do it. And
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it's not to blame ourselves. It's just to have an understanding of like,
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oh yeah, that makes sense. I can see the fear in that. Feeling
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like a doormat. So
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this comes from having poor. boundaries, right? And
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I talk a lot about this in a
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specific kind of boundaries workshop. But
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this feeling of a doormat is
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a lot of times linked to
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the same kind of martyr, martyr
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vibe. Right? A
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desire to rescue, save or fix.
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So a lot of us have equated
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being needed with being loved. Not
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the same thing. Right?
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So we again, we
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make sure that people won't leave us by making sure
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that we are invaluable to them. Oh,
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and by the way, there's never one person in
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a relationship that's codependent. We're
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all codependent in some way. We're
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all codependent. That's why I say we're
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all codependent. It's a societal thing. It
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might show up differently than for you than for
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him or manifest differently. Right? But the bottom line,
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we're all acting out of fear to not lose
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attachment. And that in and of itself is a
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So this is an interesting one,
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because there is this quote that I love. So
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there's this woman Pia Melody, who's like an OG
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in the codependency world. And she has
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this quote from one of her books where she says
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codependents under react, they
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overreact, but rarely do they act.
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And what I love about that, well, it's so spot
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on because we either we're on one extreme or the
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other, right? We have black and white. That's typically how
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we exist. It's fine. It's no
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big deal. Stupid on the rug. I shouldn't be, this is not
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a big deal. I shouldn't be upset about this. It's no big
13:28
deal until something stupid happens. That's
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probably not even a big deal. And suddenly
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we're like, well, it's a big deal, right?
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A lot of us do that. Not everybody,
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but that's very common. Right. And why is
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that? Because we don't actually have the skills
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to act, which
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is from a solid
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grounded sense of self saying, hey, that
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thing that you said really hurt my feelings and
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it wasn't cool. Right.
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And if the other person says, well, and
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they get all defensive and you go, listen, I don't, I'm not trying
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to argue this with you. I'm just letting you know I didn't like
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it. And I don't want to be treated that way. Right?
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Which would be an action. Somebody, hey,
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I feel really underappreciated or undervalued
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when you do X, Y and Z. And
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it's not about how they respond to
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the information. It's just about
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saying, coming from my grounded sense of self, I
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can feel that feeling. I can now
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know where that feeling's come from, and then I can verbalize
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it. And I'm not doing
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it out of fear or trying to, like, manipulate
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the situation. If. A
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difficulty with intimate relationships.
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So, at the end of the
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day, there is a kind of glass
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ceiling, if you will, or just a wall, where
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when I am not acting out of a state
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of authenticity, there is only so intimate I can
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get. It's only, like,
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so intimate that we can be
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with each other when I am
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not acting out of an authentic
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state. Because intimacy requires authenticity. Authenticity
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requires vulnerability. If I'm acting
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out of fear, I'm not
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going to be truly vulnerable
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or authentic. There's always going
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to be a part of me that's a little fake. Not
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rocking the boat. Because I don't want,
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I'm worried about your reaction. That's not authentic. Now,
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I get it. Again, I'm not blaming. I know
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where it comes from. Like, maybe somebody is very
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explosive. Or, like, I understand the why. But
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we still have to be able to hold
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ourselves accountable and say, but that's what I'm
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doing. Right? I realize that when I do
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that thing, I'm choosing to self abandon, not
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be authentic, and there's only so intimate I can
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get with this person. And again, this is
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all intimate relationships, right? Not just romantic. And
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so we have to kind of take a lot of
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risk and say, okay, here's what I'm not going to
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do anymore. Here's how I'm going to show up. I'm
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going to show this side of myself, or I'm going
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to do this thing, or I'm not going to fix
15:48
it, or whatever. And I'm going
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to see the information that comes back to me when
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I hold myself in integrity and I don't self
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abandon. That's fucking scary and
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really hard because our inner child
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is going, they're going to leave, they're going to leave,
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they're going to blow up, this is unsafe, you're going
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to get left, the attachment is going to sever, and
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that's, it could happen. It
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could happen. It does happen. You
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know, I say that especially with codependency work, when
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you start really doing this work, I call it
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like, John says, like, shaking the
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tree, I think you use, and I always say like
16:19
a pasta strainer, all your relationships go
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into the strainer, some of them fall through. They
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do. They cannot tolerate you having a
16:27
grounded sense of self. It's
16:30
a mirror that they don't want to look in. And
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if they don't want to, we shouldn't be making them. It's
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their life. But you activate
16:38
them with them. And a lot of times they're like, I
16:40
don't want this anymore, right? And you changing changes
16:42
the dynamic. And
16:44
they're like, I didn't sign up for a change dynamic. I'm
16:46
in this for this dynamic. Who the fuck
16:48
are you to change the dynamic, right? But
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we have to allow them that kind of choice,
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you know? But that
16:55
is the fear. Chronic
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lying or deception, usually to
17:01
yourself, but also the act
17:03
of not speaking up or
17:05
expressing ourselves honestly is deception.
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I'm withholding information from somebody. So
17:12
like, if you have a chronic way of
17:14
doing something or saying something that hurts my
17:17
feelings or makes me feel unwanted or unneeded
17:19
or whatever, insert your thing here, right? And
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I am not honest about that with you. I'm
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acting out of fear to maintain
17:27
the attachment. I'm not being authentic.
17:30
And I'm actually being deceptive. There's
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a deceptive quality to not being
17:35
honest about our relationship, like
17:37
what's going on, right? And it's like,
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usually as I do this, I give like little trigger
17:42
warnings, like I'm about to call you a manipulator, trigger
17:44
warning, about to call you a liar, trigger warning, you
17:46
know? But it's like, like you
17:48
were saying, once you hear it, you can't hear it. You're
17:51
like, yeah, I know me too. Rage
17:58
bitterness. wait, let
18:00
me go back. Sorry, lack of trust in
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yourself or others. So again, this, this, this
18:04
I'm acting out of fear. Again,
18:06
this is a lack of trust in
18:08
other people, myself, I
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do not trust that I've got me and
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I will be okay no matter what. And
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so instead, I core I act out
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of fear in my relationships. If I
18:20
had a solid sense of Yeah, it's gonna hurt.
18:23
But I know that at the end of the
18:25
day, I'm good. I got me, I would a
18:27
lot less, nobody's 100%. I would a lot less
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be acting out of fear and making
18:31
sure that attachments are staying how they are.
18:33
Right? So a lot of this has lack
18:35
of trust. And I would also add in
18:37
this a lack of trust in something
18:40
bigger. A lack
18:42
of trust in I am held. I'm
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okay. Doesn't have to
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be religion doesn't have to be dogma,
18:49
it can be a sense of there
18:51
is an energy that's higher, bigger than
18:53
me. Right? Danae said to me
18:55
one time in in AA because
18:57
she did the AA route that the
19:00
you know, because obviously AA has a lot of like religious
19:02
and spiritual undertones and somebody said, well, you know, I'm atheist,
19:04
how do I engage in this? And the woman said, that's
19:06
fine. You don't have to believe in God. But this is
19:08
the question she always asks these people that say that she'll
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say, I want you to go into the ocean and try
19:12
to stop the waves. And
19:15
then just tell me that there's no power greater
19:17
than you out there, even if it's the earth,
19:19
right? Like, of course, you're not, you're
19:21
not this, like we're all this. And there's
19:23
something even if it's just the way the
19:26
Mother Earth works, that's larger than us. But
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the fact is, too, there's a lack of
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trust in I'm okay.
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And that's learned. That's learned. We don't come
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out the womb, not trusting
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that we're held, we come out the womb
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and then we learn that we're not safe.
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Our caretakers aren't safe, right? Our attachments aren't
19:44
safe. And so we start to develop this,
19:46
like, I am not safe. That
19:48
becomes our internal reality. And then it becomes
19:50
really hard to shake that. And then what
19:52
we do is we perpetuate that by that
19:54
belief, by our codependent
19:56
behaviors, by convincing ourselves see,
19:58
see what happens if I
20:01
don't make sure the boat's not rocked, they
20:03
leave. See? Right?
20:06
Or we unconsciously get into partnerships or relationships
20:08
with people that activate our wounding to just
20:12
reinforce our false beliefs. Right? Not
20:15
consciously, but unconsciously. Rage,
20:21
bitterness, hatred, fear,
20:23
depression, anxiety, helplessness,
20:25
despair, guilt. I
20:27
put all of these very heavy words on one
20:29
line for a reason. So
20:32
what I was saying earlier about how addictions
20:34
all serve the same purpose, right? To soothe
20:36
anxiety, to kind of hide to numb. Most
20:40
of us, unless you had a well
20:43
before their time kind of upbringing,
20:45
most of us were not taught
20:47
to be with very big, very
20:49
scary, very uncomfortable emotions. Right?
20:52
A lot of us, and this isn't to blame parents,
20:54
but a lot of us came from, you know, oh
20:57
my God, stop being so dramatic. Go to your
20:59
room until you've calmed down. Right? Like
21:02
suck it up. Like life's hard. You should be
21:04
grateful for what you have. Right? Like a
21:06
lot of kind of dismissive narratives around like pulling yourself up by
21:08
your bootstraps and that there's
21:10
something wrong with you for feeling big, uncomfortable,
21:12
scary things. So whatever that looked like for
21:15
you, the bottom line is the outcome is
21:17
still the same. We have no fucking idea
21:19
how to be with ourselves when things are
21:21
big and hard and scary. And a lot
21:23
of work, like as a therapist is really
21:26
teaching people that skill because it's
21:28
a skill. Right? I
21:31
am like despair and all of these anguishing
21:33
feelings that we're all going to feel in
21:35
our lives. I got to, I got to
21:37
make it stop. How do I
21:39
make it stop? Right? So I
21:41
distract myself. I throw myself into work. I
21:44
numb it through focusing on my kid who's having
21:46
a hard time at their work. Right? Or
21:49
I hide behind this new relationship or whatever.
21:51
We do this. How can I get out
21:53
of this feeling? Right? Rather
21:55
than actually making it a practice of meditating on and
21:57
being with that feeling. What do you think of the
21:59
outcome? That's it. You guys are so
22:01
hyper-independence is just the opposite side of
22:04
the same coin. It's
22:06
still a way to control what feels
22:08
uncontrollable. And for people,
22:10
I'm the same way, who feel more
22:13
in control when I don't have to look at or
22:15
rely on anybody else, because I'm the only one that
22:17
I can trust and rely on. No
22:19
one's ever fucking been there for me. I can't trust in
22:21
anybody. They're always going to leave. They're always going to disappoint
22:23
me. They're always going to fuck me over. I know that
22:25
I got my back. It's
22:28
still a way to distance, control
22:31
the amount of
22:34
vulnerability and intimacy that I allow into
22:36
my life, because that shit's scary and
22:38
I know where it goes. It leads
22:40
to heartbreak, disappointment. But then it does.
22:45
My point of we keep reinforcing. You keep
22:47
it to yourself every time. Yes. Well,
22:50
I was right. Yes. And
22:52
a lot of times, that's a lot of unconscious
22:54
stuff that we do that the ego seeks out,
22:56
because the ego has to be right. The
22:59
number one thing the ego needs is to be right.
23:03
And so the crazy thing about that idea
23:05
is that the ego will actually do things
23:07
that are hurtful and fucked up just to
23:10
prove to itself a theory. Like
23:12
I am not safe. I'm the only one I can
23:14
trust just to be right. See? I
23:17
told you. I told you. And
23:19
most of the time, we're not even conscious of it. It's
23:21
like acting underneath the surface until
23:24
we know. And then once we
23:26
know, sometimes we can't know. And we start to be
23:28
like, oh, interesting. Why am I doing this thing? Or
23:30
why am I reaching out to this person or not
23:32
reaching out to this person? We
23:34
might develop a little bit more of an
23:36
avoidant attachment style, which tends to go hand-in-hand
23:38
with the more hyper-independence. The
23:40
kind of codependency side of this coin tends to go hand-in-hand
23:43
with a little bit more of the anxiety or the anxious
23:45
way of relating. Two
23:47
sides in the same coin. It's all just ways to mitigate
23:49
anxiety at the end of the day. Discomfort
23:52
around being close. Discomfort
23:55
around trusting somebody. Right?
23:58
I don't trust that I will be okay and I will be okay. be helped.
24:00
So let me do this. Right.
24:03
Now, there's a long journey to kind
24:05
of unpack that and there's strategies and all kinds
24:07
of things to do, but there is a reason
24:09
for it. Do you know what I mean? Yeah.
24:11
And that's usually the reason. So
24:13
that's why I say like hyper independence and codependency
24:15
at the end of
24:18
the whether we're talking about avoidant attachment anxious it
24:20
does all of this stuff serves the same purpose.
24:22
It's to soothe anxiety that comes
24:24
up from the potential of disappointment
24:27
abandonment rejection, right? Yeah, we just
24:29
all reach for different things and
24:31
has worked for us. And so we go back for more and
24:34
it gets stronger and stronger and the skill and the
24:36
tool becomes bigger and bigger because we keep proving it
24:38
to ourselves. Hey, if
24:41
you're interested in unconventional therapy
24:44
slash coaching, I invite you to come hang
24:46
with me for three days in Los Angeles.
24:49
My motto is if we're going to talk about life,
24:51
let's do life while we're talking using the city as
24:53
a canvas. Part of
24:56
it is processing part of it is
24:58
somatic experiences. It's kind of the same
25:00
tone and take I do with my
25:02
retreats except one person
25:05
just you and me. I also
25:07
bring on a team. So you have a
25:09
team at your disposal while I take you
25:11
through everything from
25:13
fitness to ice plunges to
25:15
sound baths, somatic work, rock
25:17
climbing. And of course we
25:20
have one on one deeper
25:22
conversations and process along the way.
25:25
You can find out more info on my website
25:27
at the angry therapist dot com.
25:30
Just hit the top tab there or front
25:33
and center on my bio link on
25:35
my Instagram. Hope to see you in LA.
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